Persona non Facebook

Pixelated Baby 2

I’m not posting anything to Facebook these days.  No witty remarks.  No selfies.  No listicles, quizzes, or videos of animals doing dumb things (or police officers doing dumb things for that matter).  The reason for this is that my wife and I recently had a baby and we therefore have absolutely nothing to say on Facebook.

But, but, but…  I’ve achieved the Facebook equivalent of the Holy Grail, right?  A baby!  A BABY!!!!  And not just any baby.  My baby is objectively the most beautiful, talented, alert, advanced, brilliant, funny, cute, intelligent, adorable, sweet baby that has ever, EVER, existed.  Yes, other babies are cute too, but my baby… well, all I have to do is post her every waking moment (and sleeping too) and the “Like” floodgates will open in recognition of her beauty, talent, alertness, brilliance…

So why abstain?

Like any proud parent in the age of the black mirror, my wife and I gorge on imagery of our daughter, sharing photos of wide-eyed smiles, unbearably cute feet, and the occasional poopy diaper.  We send each other text messages across the bed, simply to share every angle and point of view of our beautiful daughter.  We simply cannot get enough of her.  Yes, we have become that special brand of parent who stares at their child while simultaneously looking at photos of their child.  Judge us all you want.

The thought of posting images of my child to Facebook, however, fills me with dread.  I’ve seen the torrent of baby pictures out there and can’t shake the feeling that danger is lurking somewhere around the edges of my phone’s screen.  Photography may not be stealing my child’s soul, but is posting my child’s image to Facebook doing something similar?  Ok, maybe that’s a bit extreme but I can’t help it.

From the moment I found out my wife was pregnant a very particular brand of protectiveness has taken root in me, no doubt an evolutionary trait that makes every parent (of any species) care for its young.  When our daughter was born, that animalistic instinct ballooned to unreasonable proportions, transforming me into a prowling, overly-protective hyena with hackles raised.  The prying eyes and fingers of strangers are an abhorrent thing to me. I cringe every time a stranger peers into her stroller, and want to strike anyone who dares to touch my daughter’s foot or head or hand.  I might as well tattoo “Stay the F#@K away!” across my forehead.

You might argue that Facebook is precisely the right place for me, keeping me at a safe distance from the looky-loos while still being able to boast, celebrate, and beam my sense of pride to the masses.  After all, having a baby is a public event.

This is where our sense of public gets messy.  Some time in the distant hunting-and-gathering past, “public” would be no more than the handful of members of a small group, working together to feed, protect, and raise the young.  One certainly wouldn’t hold up ones offspring to the rival band of berry-pickers standing across the valley and say “Look what I made?!”

Maybe the broader Facebook-inhabiting public isn’t exactly rushing across the ether to do harm to my child.  If anything, we are slumped, drooling, and exhibiting nary more than a mono-syllabic, or perhaps more accurately “mono-emotic”, response.  Perusing the wash of “meaningful events” posted by others, my own reactions of “ “ooh”, or “cute”, or “yikes” are mere bursts of energy in an overall sense of “huh”.

I say this even though my wife and I do thoroughly enjoy seeing the many (sometimes too many) photos that friends post of their offspring.  Trapped as we are in our new routine, the computer screen is the only view we get of lives beyond our own: a Rear Window effect for the digital age.  A part of us longs to contribute, but then I go into a private/public tailspin.

Having a child is the most private and intimate thing I have ever done.  Posting on Facebook is anything but.  Where’s the line and who are we to decide that for our daughter?

I think forward to a time ten years in the future (or even less) when my daughter realizes that her entire life has been paraded in public for all to comment on and “Like”, without her permission.  If my sense of privacy is thoroughly in place, how will my daughter learn to have a private life herself, if every burp and coo has been made public?  Perish the thought of my daughter growing up to be constantly vigilant in how she is being perceived and whether she is being “liked”.

Our daughter is not our property to be shown off as a mark of pride for ourselves. Neither is she a pet or fashion accessory, dangled in front of public eyes as proof that we are fulfilling our social (and social-media) contract.  But we do wish to share, even if we can’t resolve the private/public tug-of-war.  So for now, let us share privately.  And yes, that includes texting, emailing, and even messaging, photos and snippets of video of all my daughters early moments. We are not living in the 20th century, after all.

Pixelated Baby 1

3 thoughts on “Persona non Facebook

  1. Heather

    I am struggling to find something witty. Too much pressure.
    I have always “disliked” FB, and it goes beyond people posting the birthing process and every step of their child’s life, I find people’s constant posing, selflies, and posting on their lives annoying. No one calls to say happy birthday anymore. I still have the same hideous picture of myself up from 5 years ago. Most people I spend time with cannot put their fucking phones down. Yet here I am posting a rant on your ranting post which will then be posted.

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  2. Eden reynoso

    After reading this I can see why Miss Jessie love you so dearly. Why you are perfect for each other and I commend you for not posting photos of I’m guessing your most beautiful child, because if she is as beautiful inside as her mother I would not share her either. I miss Jessie emensly. You are a lucky man.

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